A smile is a curve that sets everything straight(:

2011-01-11T01:22:00.001+08:00

new blog!

relink please! :D

CLICK!

k, goodnight! :D

2010-12-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

i think i'll create a new blog.

haha.

this holidays sucked totally.

i need MONEY.

i want MORE MONEY.

gah.

i hope everyone can be happy.

2010-12-09T19:12:00.002+08:00

YES. I FINALLY DECIDED TO POST.

haha.

may till now..

tons of things happened, yeah.

well, currently working at auric pacific, ordering/customer service dept.

yeah. back on maple too.

but, idk. mabe quit again.

haha.

well, my life is busy now.

that's good i guess? :)

sometimes, i hope you know that i mean what i say.

when i say stop it, i really meant it.

but you just don't get it, don't you?

i really loathe that.

on a lighter note,

i have money to spend at the end of the month ^^

2010-05-04T20:04:00.003+08:00

i'm very lazy to post!

HAHAHA!

prelim one in term 3 wk1/2.
haisssss.
>.<

cleared table today.
slept for abit too.

shall mug later.. T^T

tata~

2010-03-29T20:55:00.001+08:00

happiness, pain and sorrow always come together huh?

=/

2010-03-28T10:49:00.000+08:00

homework homework homework.
i've no life.

:O

LOL.

2010-03-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

why am i complaining when there's tons of people out there that's in a worst off situation than me?

stop, yvette.

2009-12-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

YAY.

i didn't blog for a mth?
HAHAS.
it's dead. :O

anyways,

Merry Xmas?! [ k i know dam late ]

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

hope next yr's a better yr for all. (:

hehes. xD

2009-11-29T01:38:00.001+08:00

"dont let people determine you.
you are who you are
seriously
because if you so called want to change to fit in
then you actually become a faker"

haha.
though it's just like a passing remark,
it had an impact on me.

wth was i worrying about after all?
(:

2009-11-27T23:23:00.003+08:00

why is it that everytime i'm happy,
something or someone will always make me emo?

haix.

no wonder pple say happiness don't last long.

heh.

2009-11-27T16:43:00.004+08:00

bored~

x.x

monday's cycling~
xD

practically nothing much to do at home.

band band and band almost daily now~
it's fun and interesting, yet boring at the same time.
it's happy and exciting, yet sad at the same time.

being there is like a drama show.

one must learn to accept defeats but never give up cause of them.

when we're down, think about those who're in a worse situation.
please don't give up now.

i'm really thankful to have you guys around me.
thanks a lot.
(:

"Treasure what you have,
Time is too slow for those who wait;
too swift for those who fear;
too long for those who grief;
too short for those who rejoice;
But for those who love,
time is eternity."

you may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late.

2009-11-24T17:08:00.001+08:00

it's nice.

2009-11-24T00:12:00.001+08:00

hello blog.

if one day, you were to find me being fake, please do not ask why.
for i'll be in an inconsolable state by then.

thanks.

and i'm happy ^^.

heeheez.

back frm camp.

2009-11-21T19:17:00.001+08:00

2009-11-17T19:38:00.001+08:00

"if being too nice restricts ourselves from all the happiness that others are enjoying, should we stop being too nice? it's ironic huh, good people don't always win. in fact, they're usually the ones who cry and get hurt. eventually, they end up with nothing. maybe leftovers of their unreciprocated kind heart."
-jasmine

2009-11-16T18:36:00.002+08:00

can you just fking understand my circumstances?

it's not like i don't wanna go,
but i can't go.

seriously.

why can't you organize and go?
why must it always be me?
it's not that i'm not willing to go,
but it clashed w the timing wad.

what do you want me to do?
pon?
if i could, i would.
but seriously,
i rather not go that freaking thing.

responsibility.

2009-11-15T16:20:00.002+08:00

sometimes when someone says they don't love you, it doesn't mean that they don't love you at all.
however,
sometimes when someone says they love you, it doesn't mean that they love you.

wow.
contradictory.

i just asked for a reason,
is it that hard to even reply?

2009-11-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

what happens if the close ones around you are the ones you can't seem to trust?

lols.

i seriously don't know how to react.

2009-11-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI SI JIA.
((:

hahas.

went for band in the morning.
sad to say.
i'm deaf and i failed maths today.
fk shyt.
dam disappointed in myself.
even a sec 1 can play better than me.
i shld just go bang wall and die =.="

.____________.

emo emo emo~
skipped fall in cause i seriously was like gonna tear any moment.
._.
melissa, CHEER UPPPPPPPPPP. (:
i believe u're NOT one de larhhs!
((:

chew yen was waiting for me the whole while...
psps!!
cause i really didn't want to emo infront of u guys.
=.="

hahas..
walked out of sch then sprain right leg.
=.="
fall infront of band pple..
dam unglam, once again.
=.="

haixxxx.

why am i so accident prone..
number of accidents i hav this yr is like dam uncountable.
=.="
emo~
i'm so clumsy!
D:

hahas.
i shall go train my ankle......

((:

now really pai kah.

feel like drinking peach tea...
emo.
now so many pple want to stop me from drinking peach tea..
someone, buy me one leh.
D:
i wanna get high~
and stop thinking abt emo-ish stuffs.

sorry jeremy goh, joey teo, shu juan, ezzul, shasha and mel.
today i totally attitude larh.
dam no mood.
too sad to even concentrate.
=.="

went to the playground nearby aft eating cake.
si jia and li ping dam hiong please.
i knocked my ear like a lot of times.
=.="
and i fly like mad.
LOL.
dam unglam.
too much fats.
D:
emo~
liposuction! LOL.
crazy me.
.____.

i want to go play badminton next sunday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
D:
haixxxxxx.
D:

sometimes i wonder,
is he affected by the rumour?

2009-10-28T22:30:00.002+08:00

today's boring!

whole day playing dividend.
._.

hahas.

i went bankrupt.
sorry my "parents" who gave me $4500.

D:

dam random.

and my leg hurts.
>.<
perhaps the reason why am i being so nice to people is cause i don't like the feeling of being ignored.
i really loathe it.
esp when i was young and my siblings kept "bullying" me.
i seriously loathe it.
and to think that those memories flashed back when i witnessed both of them fighting..

2009-10-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

I OFFICIALLY ANNOUNCE THAT I LOATHE EDGES.

freakkkkk.

though post-exams activities are boring..
i wanted to play handball.
lol.

only fun thing today was the stackers.
dam cool.
SJ and Liping like dam pro.
x.x

feel like learning.
:O

hahas.

fell dam unglam-ly today.
sprain + tear left foot ligament.

medical check was alright for me.
except that the blood test was scary.
D:
there got bruise...
>.<*

hahas.
nth much.

O lvl's 13days away.
Gambateh!

2009-10-22T21:02:00.003+08:00

totally loathe that idiotic eng teacher.

utterly BIASED towards GUYS.
fk.

shan't repeat it.
want to know, ask me. (:
i'm TOTALLY glad to tell u about her doings.
((:

sickening V_ L _ U SUCKS TO THE CORE TOO.
idiotic!
con me go that stupid games crap,
then so stupid de.
=.="!

after which,
visited band awhile.
sort of made the wrong decision..
lol..
>.<*

just three words : today sucks, totally.

why are you guys so desperate to become the top?
what's so nice about it?
being able to command the whole band?
seriously,
STOP being two-faced.
one fine day, i'll just slap you.
esp what you said yesterday.
i totally don't look forward to band camp.
thanks to you.

i know she is utterly disappointed with my results.
she didn't even scold me when i told her.
mabe she has given up on me.
seriously,
i'm very afraid of sec 4..
367.25days more.
HCL worst..
lousiest in class.
i just kept quiet.
couldn't even tear.

thanks yh,
made me vent my anger.
(:
hahas.
ur body nice punching bag eh.
:X

never ever dream about ur results.

2009-10-21T18:31:00.002+08:00

disappointment.

though i hav a improvement in both maths,
the others dropped.
=.="

ESP CH.
my forte..
just can't seem to tear.
that's a good thing huh?
lols.

geog A2.
(:
but mdm ros missed my name.
D:
haixx.

physics..
lol.
i could still remember the day before the exam i was telling Mr Soh and ChewYen,
Mr Soh :" there'll be at least 20 marks that you don't know how to do"
Me:" oh, so 20 marks don't know, 20 marks theory, 15marks carelessness, deduct 55 marks, just nice fail."
and really,
i got 45.
=.="

lesson learnt : NEVER EVER DREAM ABOUT UR RESULTS.
>.<*

sometimes i wonder,
was it just me being overly-sensitive or was he looking all the while?

2009-10-20T22:00:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO CYCLE!

2009-10-20T18:28:00.003+08:00

headache~
=.="

ever tried sleeping for EVEN number of hours and ur head hurts?
=.="

so retardedddd.

hahas.

hope they had fun today.
(:

didn't meant to lie to you,
but i think i should just go back to my emo corner again.
hahas.
stupid retarded me.
u guys kept saying "what are friends for".
but i feel dam bad trying to act like i don't care when i do.
so many times i just hid those emotions.
feigning ignorance whenever i see them.
act nonchalant.

i can forgive, but i can't forget.
x.x

tmw's the day.
i'm afraid, really.
though they said all the decision lies with the principal, i'm scared.
>.<*

pessimist.

2009-10-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

failed chem~
39/100.
best.

even when i tried so hard..
things juss can't get into my head..
>.<

haix.
dam sad.
utterly no mood to play at all.
=.="

hoping that Mr Lew will tell me "ur overall pass".
else,
u can see a depressed me..
>.<

freak...

i don't wanna retain.

guess i won't be able to sleep today..

2009-10-14T15:31:00.003+08:00

another depressing paper ended.

EMATHS paper was easy,
but,
i tio stun.
all the questions looked so easy..
but,
i didn't complete.
wthell is wrong with me.

first time i could bear the tears within me.

sorry if i was anti-social.

i bet xiang lan was shocked.
lols.
didn't notice that they were behind until we reached the bend.
think he saw.
oh well.
whatever larh.

i want to get it over and done with.
fk man.
die die MUST pass chem.
so far i only got like,
eng, amaths, geog.
fk.
no confidence de: emaths, physics.
have the strong feeling that i screwed up: CH.
=.="

disappointed in myself.
i shall go mug.

2009-10-11T02:02:00.002+08:00

went for chem consultation yesterday (saturday)
hahas.

note the time.
(:

i just can't sleep.
.__.

shall do a bit of revision later.
^^.

mr lew forgot me.

sadded.
guess i'm insignificant~
>.<

shall sit in my emo corner and hide.

Ch paper was a total screw up.
i blanked out.
fk.

humanities was the only subject i could be proud of.
totally dampened my morale.
next up,
AMATHS.[50% failing]
GEOG.[i put in a lot of hard work, hopefully can pass..]
PHYSICS. [70% failing]
EMATHS.[mabe can pass]
CHEM.[50% failing]

wow.
freak.
dam loser, dun give up now.

i seriously don't know if it's coincidence or what..
but,
consecutive 3 days..
haix.
i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
i said i don't,
but i contradict.
sometimes, it just hurts a lot.
brings back the memories,
and now?
it's making me to lose my last bit of motivation.
just a "you can do it" from __ can really push me to work for more than half a year.
but it just stopped working now.
i really don't want it to end this way.
GAH. IDIOT YVETTE!

randomness.

2009-10-05T20:04:00.000+08:00

super cute video. :D

hahas.

off to mug~

2009-10-02T21:54:00.002+08:00

went study group today.

jasmine, cindy, jeremy goh, hui zhen, chew yen and doris.

(:

not very productive.

i learnt new stuffs.
finally cleared my e maths trigo.
cleared quite a lot of doubt with chem volumetric calculations.
x.x

sorry chew yen!
i think i confused u.
i was like "5g = impurities + pure, 4.375g = pure, so impure + pure - pure u'll get impure. then u x100% u'll get %impurity, then 100% - %impurity = %purity".
lols!

i heard hui zhen saying about that too.
dam funny larhhs.
hahas

realised a lot of people frm commonwealth went je lib too.
saw ren yi, xin ying, shu juan, jing yue, chunni, jean, nicole and neil.
lols.

studying tmw and sunday too.
((:

i must feel motivated and study again like a freak,
like the old me.
why am i slacking at the crucial part?
x.x

perhaps it's just me and my sensitive-ness.
i admit,
i was jealous.
but think of it,
what can i do?
i just think too much...
but seriously, it sucks big time.
i know i should stop thinking,
but i can't catch my mind back in time.
gah!

humilated.

2009-09-30T23:03:00.003+08:00

today wasn't really a good day.
i don't feel the exams atmosphere at all.

.______.

i need to get back to prev. me.
though emo but hardworking.
LOLS.

kinda humilated today.
sorry the rest of the class and Mr Lew..
it's like cause of us that's why the class cancelled..
>.<

i hope tmw wont flunk.

you wanted to pon and we didn't say anything,
yet you attitude us.
wtfuck.
still stretch out ur leg and put at my there.
attitude somemore lar.
i told you before,
i'm getting damn pissed at you.
yet you still don't gif a damn.
fuck la.

2009-09-29T21:06:00.003+08:00

today,
AMATHS lesson is ok.
kinda understood mrs tan lesson.
(:

psps, i'm really not a good teacher.
x.x
plus my mathematics just improved only.
amirul dam hurting today.
met him in the morning on the 79 bus,
snatched seat from me!! D:
lol.
walked to school,
compared recent a maths test result.
finally won amirul in a subject!!
then he emphasised "FINALLY".
gah!

better late than nothing!!

hahas..

ms ng didn't come for today's lesson..
taught lp how to do some trigo graph.
hopefully i helped.
stayed in class during recess to revise geog..
x.x

geog class test was good.
i know how to do everything!
:D
but she said it wasn't counted in CA.
=.="
sadded.

chinese later was okok.
sj is NOISY!
hahas.
dam funny.
1st section of mock paper 2,
i anyhow guessed cause i was dam lazy and tired to do.
[hopefully i wont do that in eoy..]
got 7/10.
same as JW who read through everything.
:P
must be luck.
LOLS.

CDP exam tmw.
wonder why is there such an exam.
so retarded.
._______.

i realised that one cannot please everyone.
perhaps i was really not a good person from the beginning,
but at least i tried to change for the better.
perhaps, i'm just overly sensitive.

mr soh today is insulting.
felt like slapping him at the end of the "consultation".
he reminded me of vilau's suan-ing.
sometimes,
i feel disgusted at the intelligence of others.
why they don't study and get good grades while i can't?
i revise what i don't know.
i listen in class.
i do my work promptly.
i ask whenever i needed help.
why can't i excel?!
=.="
sometimes it's just depressing.

笑口常开，好彩自然来！

加油！

Believe in the beauty of your dreams.

2009-09-26T18:39:00.012+08:00

i didn't blog for one week.

*claps*

LOL.

this week passed quite fast.

all i remembered:

wednesday didn't had CT.
had loads of fun in the hall,
getting crazy over the assembly talk.
xD

hahas.

Thurs was physics SPA.
first class.
mr koh is nice.
but, he's dam strict.
and i made the most foolish mistake ever.
GAH.
feel dam dumb.
shan't talk about it,
cause i know there're people out there who's in a more worse situation than me.

Friday only had 1hr30mins of lesson.
shall repeat again;
I WANT CH.
irritated.
why is it that whenever i want to go for lesson, i have to miss them?
and whenever i don't want to go for lesson, i don't have a reason to not go?!
>.<*
mind was floating everywhere.
kena scolded~
oh wells.
think i'm too slack too.
but juggling between studies and band is really tiring.
i must manage my time!
(:

mooncake fest @ school.
it's as boring as last yr.
only that we were dam high (only at the ending and during jeremy t's performance)
dam "grand" entrance.
we walked into the hall shouting n screaming for jeremy as he was about to sing.
the audience, (i think mrs terrence stared, oh well) looked at us.
LOL.
balloons frm the award's day flew passed us.
LP caught one.
i had one too, ( released @ JE interchange later on )
(:

went crazy over Ris Low's "BOOMZ" LOLS.
i got attracted to a guy who boomz!
LOLOL.
[crazy random person here.]

section tee!
hopefully we'll have one.
bet we're the only section without a section tee.
=.="

i realised one thing today.
when you're studying and you say "you give up", it is very easy.
when you're in love and you say "you give up", it is almost impossible.
it's a different kind of 'give up'.

in different circumstances, the attitude towards 'giving up' changes.

"It’s hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen; but it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want."
-Jasmine Ng Hui Shan

it's not that you don't get it.
it's just that you're not interested.
you don't put in the effort to remember how it is being done.
you just feel that you're always correct.
not that everyone wants to give up teaching you,
it's just that you're EXTREMELY stubborn.
you'll believe that whatever you do is correct, even when you're in the wrong.

there can be miracles when you believe~

2009-09-18T21:41:00.002+08:00

there can be miracles when you believe~
(:

hahas.
it somehow got jammed into my head.
x.x

lets hope miracles happen.
(:

touched by jasmine ng hui shan for her great effort in helping me.

in fact i was damn shocked when i saw the two pages of notes she've done for me.
x.x

really thanks a lot!
<3

it would be a miracle if i passed the recent maths CT.

hahas.

i really suck a lot, huh.
"your effort is there, but you understand the subjects much slower than the others".
perhaps that's my problem.

how to change it siahhs.
=.="

i even study beforehand for maths alr,
yet i will still be stumbled.
x.x

haixxxxxxxxxx!

dun gif up!

2009-09-14T18:23:00.002+08:00

never believe chew yen.
xD

hahas.

dunno who claimed that she'll flunk physics CT and she passed~

dunno why,
though i prepared myself mentally,
i just had that verge of tear coming out.

seriously,
i lost like 6-8 marks due to carelessness.
feel like slapping myself.
._______.

damit.
i must pass EOY.
i don't care how.
=.="

if time management was my only problem,
then it would be great.
but,
i dunno what's my problem.
that's the tough part.

seriously,
i envy them.

at the very least,
when they mug hard, they pass.
when both of them were smiling there,
claiming that they passed,
i felt damn dejected.
i don't wanna feel that way.

but i really envy them.

i want a faster brain.

mock paper 1 today,
okok, i just hope i'll improve.
my mind went blank for first 10min,
turned to my right and i saw xy sleeping,
which ain't helping me to concentrate.
=.="

seriously,
i must improve.
16days more to HCL paper.
23days more to start of EOY.

i should just go bang wall,
perhaps that will make me smarter since i'm already stupid enough.
.______.

2009-09-13T20:41:00.000+08:00

anyone know tmw is CH or geog?

i seriously feel that it's CH.
._______.

wk 1 = odd wk = CH.
=.="

but they say dunno what even week on the calendar.
.__________________.

sadded.

CH MIND MAP IS HARD TO DO.
>.<*

2009-09-10T15:19:00.003+08:00

"You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it."

FB's application, "God wants you to know".
hahas.

perhaps it's true.

^^

felt utterly tired recently,
i was like dead beat at 11pm yesterday?
.______.
perhaps it's due to the constant a maths spamming..
or perhaps it's just the stress~
exams exams exams.
=.="

i want to smile and laugh like i really mean it.

stop those fake facade.

1. i need to grow.
2. i need to buck up on my subjects, my parents deserve smarter kids, really.
3. i need to save up, fyi, i'm utterly broke.
4. i need to improve in band, i'm such a loser now.
5. i need to show to soh that i am smart.
6. i need to clarify matters asap, i don't want anyone to misunderstand me..
7. i need to shed off those weight, GAH!
8. i need to be the old smiling me, why have i gotten back into this emo realm?
9. i need to find a way to make my brains work FASTER!
10. i need to know how to relax.
11. i need to learn how to cycle!
12. i need to go bang wall soon due to stress. LOL.

i've many many more to accomplish..

i shouldn't have given up so easily,
but i can't regret,
cause it'll only lead to more regrets.

today sucks.

2009-09-08T23:00:00.003+08:00

damn sucky day.

started off with a sucky note at school,
ended off with a sucky mood.
.______.

morning,
went off to Jurong Island.
was kinda happy.
(:
chemgallery is cool and enriching.
:D

arrived back in school at 11am+.
perhaps the first time a teacher made me tear.
like a teacher that's incharge of my CCA,
not my own subject teacher.
.___.

i can't control my emotions recently.
x.x

totally damn sick and tired.
wan pon also make me so guilty..
but seriously,
with only 27 people, what can we do?
27 out of 50? or perhaps even more.

super sick and tired.

had headache later on,
KDS kajiao-ed.
walked into bandroom,
KDS:"Yvette has headache today, dun irritate her".
idiot.
he gu yi one lor.

like i wan that headache like dat..
probably my head not enough water.
afterall,
it's the first time i "bawled"(?) infront of so many people.
and a guy.
lol.

JY was dam funny,
he was damn hum.
then cy said "handsome but most hum".
LOL.

super funny.
tried my best to force the tears not to flow.
perhaps i tried too hard,
but really,
whenever i think back,
i really feel that i'm a stupid idiot.
"different people has different learning abilities, your just happened to have the slow learning ability."

win.
i always thought being hardworking can "overcome" slow learning,
but i'm totally wrong.

tried to last for the entire band practise.

forced myself to find a cab and cabbed to JP to meet mum and bro.

bro bought his working stuffs.
i saw a flats that i liked.
$25 bucks.
hahas.

_____________________________________________________

somehow,
his presence will always make me stop crying.
like some magical spell.
but i know i don't like him anymore.
(:

2009-09-07T19:21:00.005+08:00

ever seen such a long ticket?
:D

half a metre long,
13 tickets.
(:

a vague measurement using LP's LEG.

hahas.

watched G-FORCE!

this hamster is utterly CUTE.
:D

hahas.

went in with:

CHEW YEN, HUI ZHEN, CINDY, JIA WEN, SI JIA, LI PING, CHOCK, GARY, YI HONG, BOON TECK, VINCENT, YEW LOONG and ME. :D

hahas.

super funny and cool movie.
((:

the tua pai LP took taxi to school today.
she overslept and didn't bathe.
what a best thing to do early in the morning of her birthday.
hahas!

Oral was okok.
i asked Ms Debrati to repeat a lot of times,
couldn't really decipher what she's talking.
x.x
i digressed in the conversation.
saw 10marks in first 2 columns, but didn't manage to see the last marks.
hope i'll be able to score well..

after the movie,
went JP to buy LP's bag and mine.
SJ and LP toured the whole JP with me in search of my slippers too.
x.x

thanks a lot!

sorry guys,
like dam pangseh.
x.x
i feel bad,
but what can i do?
._____.
really psps.
>.<*

___________________________________________________

perhaps what she said was correct,
i should just break all contacts with him,
why am i not doing it?
but why can't i talk to him as friends?
.___.
i still want my friends.
i shall remain on my stand,
do what i think is right.
(:

2009-09-06T21:16:00.002+08:00

this is what happens when you studied a maths too much.
:P

hahas!

previously,
i used to believe in this.

now, perhaps a little still.

hahas. (:

psps hui zhen >.<
i totally overslept larhhs.
._______.

x.x

perhaps i was too tired,
i couldn't really concentrate much.
>.<

haixhaix.

i must pass eoy chem, physics, geog, a maths and most importantly,
ENGLISH!

my english results dropped.
like shyt now.
crap.

2009-09-03T17:34:00.002+08:00

soh said 11 failures.
bet i'm one of them.

=.="

haix.

soh came told me today that i barely passed the mark,
meaning i barely failed 3 subjects.
cause failing 4 subj means need to go back DAILY.

._________.

totally dam sad lar.
he said by his intuition,
means he already had little faith in my le lorhhs.
=.="

am i really that stupid?
._____.

but i seriously think i got improve,
and i feel proud of it.
'cause i feel that my hard work finally paid off,
even if it's just a tiny little ONE mark.

hahas.

sad lar.
_______________________________________

just a little question,

don't you feel a little guilty doing that to her?
i mean,
i'm bad too,
but don't you think she has got what she deserves?

what if you were her?

haix.
i need to really improve and prove soh that i really IS SMART!
>.<*

once again. =/

2009-09-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

physics CT,
i was aiming for C5.
dun even think will pass, once again.
>.<*

saddddddddddddddddddddd.

i studied real hard for it larhhs.

totally tio cheated by KTS.
KTS CHEATED MY FEELINGS!!!!!!!!

oh well, enough of KTS.

on a lighter note,
LP chose her bag alr,
which means i'm UTTERLY SLOWWWWWW.
i said i wanted a new bag for like ages ago,
and she found hers first!!
*pouts*

=/ =/

i nid a short bag.
cause i'm too short.
x.x

but i really feel like carrying those bags like stephanie's.
but it'll really look utterly weird on me.
please please let me growwwwwwwwww!

T.T

why do i always like things that aren't suited for me?
>.<*

____ is very demanding.
he wants me to call him shi fu before he's willing to teach me.
x.x

LOL.
i don't think i'll ever call him that.
=X

hahas!

p/s: he said he'll get me a bag if i EVER win him in maths, which is utterly impossible. At least i've a goal to work towards now. (:
win my "shi fu"! xD

off to mug for GEOG & EMATHS!

the proposal.

2009-08-31T23:46:00.002+08:00

went to vivo grand with JW, LP and CINDY!
xD

been like quite a long time since i watched a movie.
:(

watched the proposal.
damn cool.
"three day ago, i loathed her.
three days later, i fell in love with her."

hahas.
(:

probably my first few days of not emoing for too long.
perhaps i nid to be out,
or perhaps i nid to mug more often to refrain my brain from imagining things.
x)

sorry primary school mates!!
didn't really meant not to go,
but you guys didn't ask,
so i presumed that you all forgotten me.
>.<*

perhaps it's just me,
but i just felt insignificant recently.

oh wells.

life has to go on~
tests coming~

sorry two-two people who are going for the outing/ gathering @ Jeremy Teng's house!
didn't mean not to go please.
and i'm not hum, YH.
i seriously need to buck up on my sciences.
or i'll really fail EOY CHEM and PHYSICS.
perhaps chinese too.
gah.

i needa STUDYYYYY.
x.x

2009-08-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

"You want to shed a tear, but is afraid that you will end up showing weakness.
You want to rant at someone, but not sure who to rant to.
You want to change everything around you, but don't have the power to do so.
Tempted by the power to isolate yourself, but you know that will just add on to the feeling.

You see your friends living their life without you, and makes you wonder whether you really play an important role in their lives, or are you just a tool or even just a slave.
When needed they turn to you and want your company, if not, you're just left aside and forgotten."

perhaps that's why so many pple are finding "true" friends.

but i seriously wonder who will be able to find one.

no one's perfect.

this thing has been going on my mind for dunno how long recently.

perhaps i'm just overly sensitive to my surrounding.

(:

2009-08-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

went studying with LP and SJ.

think they both feel that i'm a gal now.

lolss.

just felt like wearing black and white today.
so yepps,
looked like i'm mourning.

hahas.

i think the grp study okok,
not very productive for me though.

partly cause i didn't have the mood,
and cause the qns i asked were not really ans-ed.
lol.

plus mum sick,
so yepps.
hopefully i'll be able to concentrate later,
in the middle of the night.
(:

bye~

Don't ask. Don't say. Everything lies in silence.

2009-08-27T20:17:00.004+08:00

" Don't ask. Don't say. Everything lies in silence. "

joey said i looked very stressed out.
perhaps i'm.

got back situational writing CT today.
got 20/30, but i'm damn not happy with it.
not being proud or whatsoever, but i really deteriorated a lot.
like, really a lot.

我有几次都好像哭，但那些泪水就是流不下。
有时放弃的念头，但一想到自己花了那么多时间和功夫，就觉得自己很傻。
做也不及格，不做也不及格，为什么还要做呢？
那天，我告诉老师我很累，很像抛开这一切，但考试快到了。
但他告诉我去好好的玩，玩个痛快，然后在读书。

我不想辜负我的父母，但我不知该从哪里开始。
从头？我没时间了。

我能靠谁？

perhaps that why i look so emo these days.
i just dunno how to say how i feel into words.
seriously,
i feel damn dejected and hopeless.
people kept telling me "slowly, you can de"
do i have the time to improve slowly?

if it's the middle of the year now, perhaps i do have the time.
EOY's coming.
i'm so goner.

hahas.
i sound like a person in great despair.
x.x

anyone kind enough to study with me this saturday/sunday?

2009-08-24T19:17:00.002+08:00

two videos for today!
(:

damn romantic please.
it's real life i think.

hope next time can have this kind.
LOL!

i dream too much and too far.
.________.

hahas.

JUBEAT!

Y.S-Y playing Evans!

crazy score.
.__.
+ it's invisible de marker.
x.x
he broke once
>.<

Full combo~

^^

off for dinner~

Sometimes, what you see may not be what it is.

2009-08-23T21:40:00.003+08:00

i felt that he was lonely.

went to Summer Festival on Saturday~

Candy Floss~

Coupons for Sausages. (:

i pity the person inside.

There was this potrait guy who drew cartoon like people.
it really resembles the person.

Sis with Jaslyn's water balloons.
those things are fun to play with!
like yo-yo~
(:

Went to changi village to eat.
:3

Jaslyn looks serious.
:O

-the end-

(:

basically toured the whole fun fair.
didn't really played much.
>.<

hopefully, my bro can get tickets for next yr~~
=X

reminds me of Jason. :O
see!
i'm so nice larhhs!
such a great friend, still remember you!
JYJY for ur Os!

"Outshine with Passion", the motto for 3/2.
hopefully we'll show it out.
(:

Those who laughed the loudest, the happiest, are those who are the saddest. They just trying to show people they are not sad by laughing.

Emovescence.

2009-08-21T22:48:00.003+08:00

Emo virus is spreading around everywhere~~
please be careful and not contract it!!

(:

band sucks big time today.

totally slacking full band,
weirdo photo shoot,
assholic people,
theft.

=.="

i'm totally drained.

dun put a facade front.
'cause i wanna know the true you.

hong kong trip's cancelled.

one more hope gone~

band concert's on 25Jan.
hopefully it's a good one?

hahas.

EOY's coming in a few weeks time.
.________________________.

2009-08-20T21:15:00.002+08:00

seems like everyone's in bad mood.
x.x

sometimes, i wonder why do we have to fake a front for others to see?

perhaps that's for the sake of ur fren's sake?

lol.

i think i alr displayed a damn bad side to the trio~
hahas.

too bad luhhs,
when i dun like a person,
i'll have my ways.

you said" bear with it ".
i did.

but they just went OVER the limits.

hahas.

utterly speechless nowadays.

"sometimes, whenever i see him, i would wanna follow his traces everywhere he walked"
perhaps,
i'm really contradicting myself.

hahas.

HUI ZHEN! CHEW YEN!
dun sad, angry, worry le larhhs!
船到桥头自然直!
worry or not, things that are supposed to happen will happen derhhs.
x.x

no point in thinking too much,
though sometimes, it's just hard not to.

just remember,
not everything is as beautiful/wonderful as what you dream/wish.
work hard for it.
(:

it's just me.

2009-08-19T17:44:00.005+08:00

i'm most probably feeling the same feeling like jasmine now.

just felt damn extra.

even though i know it's all my problem.
'cause it's me who think this way.
it's just, i feel weird to everything.
something's just not right and it's bothering me a lot lately.
just can't pinpoint what that is.

i dunno larhhs.

in the whole group, no one is fat.
probably that's what i feel bahhs.

feel like just being anorexic and shed those irritating weight.
!@#$%.

ezzul made me cry yesterday.
cause he made me laugh while i was drinking water.
i choked.
and the water came out from my nose.
super disgusting.
and it's dam unglam cause he was there too.

totally don't get why i feel this way recently.
i dun wanna feel that,
my mind and mood just goes there~

bastard guy today,
hitted my head with that soccer ball at full impact.
i was like in total pain lar.
natural reaction - cry.
it seriously hurts larhhs.
the impact was so loud that it sounded like something clashing with metal.
.______.

i totally spaced out during CH.

why am i so prone to accident?

=.="

haix.

feel like just slapping myself upside-down.

"out in this vast world,
i believe there's somewhere and something that fits me.

but the numerous failures burdening over me.

i can't help but doubt myself."

quoted from jasmine.

i feel that too.
perhaps more of inferiority.

forcing myself to study is of no use.
i pity him.
but i dun wanna go near him.
'cause i'm afraid that i'll fall deeper again.
how contradicting.

i really admire xiang qin in the show it started with a kiss.
she could persevere for so long.
after all, a show is a show.

2009-08-15T19:16:00.002+08:00

went studying with liping today. (:

she's insult-atious.
lol!

i'm not as smart as she think larhhs.
.___.

ratio theorem sucks. (:

and somehow,
we saw the netball + badminton gang.

ah.
random.

the stupid website doesn't hav any sites that can let me watch "when a dog loves a cat".
.________.
sadded.

>.<

megavideo got,
but always connection problem.
x.x

sadddddddddddddddddd!

perhaps, it's just me.

2009-08-13T20:09:00.003+08:00

recently dunno what went over me,
think i've an attitude problem or something.

gah.
=.="

mdm ros was really true,
the class lack of attitude and spirit.
hopefully, we'll improve and stop agitating teachers.
>.<

dunno bahhs..

i really feel weak nowadays,
i can even tear on small matters.
perhaps,
it's really kong xu.
i'm contradicting lar..
i feel kong xu, but i don't go interact with people.
like some anti-social kia.
=.="

perhaps a repeat of last yr.
.___.

and even till now,
i still don't understand why did i gave up cause of her.
i seriously never hated/ disliked her.
perhaps i was just plain jealous.
she really gave me the signal that i'll be the one losing at the end,
call that inferior if you want.
i don't have confidence in winning her.
perhaps cause she's so close with them.

it kinda hurts.

perhaps it was cause of last yr that hitted me hard.
but seriously,
i've no faith in myself already.

hopefully my close friend will give up on him soon,
else she might suffer the same fate as me,
or even worse.

but at the end of the day,
what can i do?

SENTOSA! :D

2009-08-08T16:13:00.006+08:00

trip to sentosa with 6 great people! :D
SI JIA, JIA WEN, LI PING, CHEW YEN, HUI ZHEN and BAO XIAN! xD

i was dam kuku.
didn't bring slippers, shoe case and extra plastic bags.
and i lost my rubber band in the toilet, while bathing.
.____.!

started off going to hui zhen's house! :D
thanks a lot hui zhen!
i would've died without her! ;X

went over to Vivo frm school after changing.

*note: Unglam photos will only be available till 8pm today! :D*

sat the monorail~

reached sentosa!

BEACH STATION~

R-I-P LIPING! :D

it rained after this.
but luckily, it's only awhile!
then we went over to the southmost place in Southeast Asia! :O

On the Bridge~

was on the bridge and we saw this group of people~

some kind soul helped to take our photos! :D

cannot see faces!

stairs :D

it's damn windy.

and this is the only successful shot with chew yen spurting out saliva like a merlion :o

the smart si jia who forgot to on timer.
took her legs tgt.
HAHAS!

-photo deleted-

luckily liping brought a inflatable balloon~

hyper people who were jiayou-ing liping. (:

played ball most of the time.
it was funny!
'cause of the wind, the ball kept flying away,
then u see people running towards it.
and the tide brings the ball ashore! :D

hahas.

afterwhich we bathed and bao xian wanted to go home :(
then we went on with luge and skyride!

SKYRIDE:

was thinking about tropical rainforest. hahas!
mdm ros is <3!

the smart si jia was damn lucky.
she dropped her slipper at the end of the skyride,
if it was 1 sec earlier, it would hav dropped all the way down.
LOL.
the guy risked his life and help her pick it up. :O

was at imbiah station and thus,
we passed by the merlion.
i'm a singaporean who have never seen such a big merlion! :O

liping though the flowers were real.

lastly,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHEW YEN!! xD
sorry, i don't have any glam photo of u. :x

ciiaos! :D

5 tests :O

2009-08-06T18:47:00.002+08:00

this week's been normal.
EXCEPT FOR THE TESTS.
had 5, 2 Common Tests, 3 Class Tests.

i wanna dieeeeeeeeeeee!
study till i drop i tell u.
i even slept with my chem textbook.
how great?

at least i think i've changed.
the me previously will be like " har! Chem, sure fail larhhs, study also fail, suan le" then heck cares.
hahas.

i wonder who can be as pro as me,
jump to catch a SHUTTLE COCK and fall cause i landed on the racket handle,
and twisted my ankle.
i even fall flat.
how great.
my front hurts leh. [ if u know what i mean ]

wonder why i'm so retarded nowadays.
it's so,
wtheck?
i see the sky can even see chemical equations.
wth!

and i kept drawing circles on my ipod.
.__.

guess what,
i haven even watch 20th century boys.
and i am so outdated on the movies screening now.
=.="

somehow, i just lost interest in 20th century boys.
perhaps it's cause of that incident bahhs.
lols.

OH!

I WON _ _ _ _ _ _!
:D
super duper happy.
she was like after the test :" I know how to do every question except the last 2 "
jia wen:" so you can get 40 plus lar?!" [Common Test paper was upon 45]
i thot i was damn stupid by her remark.
then get back,
i won her by 10marks.
:D
and jia wen went to suan her.
hahas.
wanted to suan her also, but better not bahhs.
i was a failure too.

perhaps you may say i'm hiding,
perhaps it may seem that i've no courage,
perhaps you're right.

i avoided almost daily,
yet it pains to see them.

btw, i'm not emo.
i'm just expressionless.

GAH.

2009-07-30T20:49:00.003+08:00

"Meeting you has made me understand what fate is.
We will meet a lot of people in our life time,
but as for your soul mate,
it has already been determined by fate."

hahas.
from fated to love you.
(:

2009-07-30T18:23:00.003+08:00

feeling super tired.

dunno why.
perhaps exhausted?
'cause i'm suppose to be resting at home yet i went sch.
=.="

soh told me 500ml is a lot of blood cause normal human only has 2-3litres of blood.
o.o

somehow,
after the op, i'm like some crazy woman going around asking for food.
=.="

had pains after lunch.
but i bear w it till end of the day.
hahas.
i even walked to teban garden market and then to the junction where there's lots of buses.
crazy me.
perhaps i really missed them.
(:

but somehow,
i feel seperated from them..
all my clicks are on the left side of the class,
leaving me on the right only..
it's only me lar.
haix.
.____.

sadddddddd.
i can't find motivation to even study,
though i keep forcing myself.
=.=*
emo!
Chem CT most probably will fail,
not that i wanna fail,
not that i didn't try.

i studied the textbook,
but didn't get it.
i listened in class,
but i was even blur.
i asked friends,
all i get was answers from them.
>.<

die die must win her!
[:

HOSPITALISED.

2009-07-28T14:19:00.002+08:00

damn thankful to SI JIA, for taking my homework and copying down lessons stuffs.

super thankful to LIPING, for smsing me in the middle of lessons, ps, i think i very ma fan. .__.

very thankful to JIAWEN, JASMINE, BOON TECK, JOEY, JASLYN [ future sis-in-law? ].

:D

my whole family was like very worried.
x.x

think i scared them.
>.<

wonder why i nid to have 9days of mc.
=.=

ROTTING AT HOME.
GG for next week's chem CT.
sure fail.
lol. =.=
i dun understand QA and MOLES.
read textbook also blur.
SALT PREP okok, but kinda blur.
GG!

hopefully i can go school on fri [ on sly ;) ]
and pray hard the school wont send me home or something.
'cause my MC says till 4th AUG.
=.="

according to my cousin, she read my report,
blood clot was ard 500ml.
1bottle of coke like dat.
i think i wont drink any coke for as far as i'll remember.
x.x

hahas.

Operating Theatre was scary.
damn cold.
and they con me.
they told me it was oxygen and tell me to inhale deeply.
it's anastetic.
=.=*
to think that i really believed it was oxygen.

oh wells.
i better study hard.
so gonna miss classmates, bandmates! ):
and i'm missing tons of lessons.
GG!

I DON'T WANNA LOSE TO HER.

2009-07-25T16:08:00.002+08:00

this week's kind of fulfilling. (:

MONDAY:

Physics SPA, i screwed.
but i had a great time laughing at Nicholas who laughed at me.
Nicholas: u also dunno how to do?
Me: yar, like u know like dat.
Nicholas: i think i know.
then Jing Han came and said he know.
Nicholas: you alr do wrongly le.
and both of them started arguing.
Gary said smt abt stop fighting and start figuring out or smt.
super funny lar.

TUESDAY:

three-two, a bunch of frens and my family sang bday song to me.
hahas. (:
had a wonderful time. :D

WEDNESDAY:

i forgot what happened.
ohh.
O's Listening Compre.
sucks.
according to XLL, first 4 qns are D.
means one wrg alr.
.___.

THURSDAY:

pissed off with NG.
went lunching with xiao li, xiao yun, stephanie, bao yen, da li.
(x
GOSSIP GANG! :D
hahas!

FRIDAY:

super tired + backached.
think i ran up and down the stairs too much.
it's still hurting now.
=.="
i ran abt 7 times up and down, meaning 14times.
1st floor to 4th floor.
.___.
had 4 hours of technicals.
superly tired.
my clarinet peed on the floor and on me.
hahas!
how cool is that?
x.x
-------------------------------------------------

i must find motivation to study.
can't let her win me!
i loathe that part of her which said
" so easy! Just sub in the values you'll get a graph alr wad, u dunno meh? "
ass.
just you wait!
EOY must get better than u!
even my best subj also tio insulted by u.
go bang wall!

k;
i should go and force myself to study or smt.
.___.

2009-07-23T17:54:00.002+08:00

Thanks a lot for all the wishes and birthday songs!! (:

really damn touched.

it may sound kuku,
but yes,
it's the first time a class in secondary has ever sang a bday song for me.
x.x

the card was..
creative?
with a retarded kia photo in it.
.__________.
i wonder who's perfect idea it is.

lol~

thanks jay[soon teck], jasmine, gary, yi jian, trisha, yew loong, caii, kim, jia wen, melissa, si jia, charlotte, chew yen, hui zhen, jayden, shu juan, yong yee, zhen yee, boon teck, jeremy goh, vincent, yi hong, dolly, kah hwee, alfred, li ping, ezzul, wendy, doris, xiang lan, stephanie, joey teo, azhar, xian loon, hanis, ahmad, mariyah.

many many more!
[sorry if i didn't mention ur name!]
x.x

first time i had a ice cream cake for bday. :D

wahahahahas. (:

=D

family bought a NDS for me.
it's pink.
(:

really thanks the 5 guys who bought that enormous pink bear for me. :D
very touched larhhs.

joey for making the m&n cake!
it's delicious. ;D

liping, jia wen and si jia for the clothing~
and the card!

jasmine for the touching compo and oncoming present(?)

hahas!

((:

stupid jas forgot my bday.
*slaps*

LOL.

a damn nice clip.

oh yeah,
lp,jw and sj are dam qian bian this week.

hahas.

and i found gossipping khaki! :P

i just loathe it when the _ _ said i FAILED eng since term one.
wtf.
i shall prove her wrong by going to her remedial.

how smart?

i will improve!
perhaps it's MUST.
especially MATHS.
i dun wanna lose to her. [_ _ _ _ _ _]
fill in the blanks urself.

((:

i'm 110%..
.__.
haix.
i need to grow urgently.
or can i juss go for liposuction or smt?
.________.

stupid sia.
skipping doesn't help.
running doesn't help, it made me heavier due to muscles.

gah.
stupid ass.
=.="

2009-07-20T18:46:00.004+08:00

Saturday;
Family took me out to BakerZin in JP2 for my birthday celebration!

:3

xDDDD

dam nice.

i sinned by eating cheesecake.
There was also chocolate cheesecake [top 50 cakes], mango cheesecake and coockies & cream cheesecake.
1 slice each (:

super niceeeeeeeee.
(:

i shall go run soon.
>.<

and they gave me a pink Nintendo DS.
omg! x.x!

utterly shocked when i opened it.
((:

super loves! (:

Saw this Mr Brown's video.
Song is the NDP theme song, " What Do You See"

MUST WATCH, best is you know hokkien. (:

tmw's a special day! (:

2009-07-18T13:12:00.003+08:00

was flipping through old photos

taken from last yr's games day or smt.
was this pic about Ezzul, ShaSha and me supporting NewBalance shoes.

Funny things happening at the bandroom, Benjamin was using his cloth to wack Shannon

Baby niece, Shannen, last yr

Shannen this yr; it's amazing to see how fast she grows~

Jeremy forever doodling on the whiteboard at 2-2.

Those super fattening food while studying for MYE~

NANJING!

Mass exercises at Nanjing's high school~

The Art Room;
it looked kinda nice. =D

The pudding that looked scary..

Last yr trip to kindergarden for CIP cancer thing.

I forgot the cake was for what,
i think it's my sis's best friend wedding gift or smt.. o.o

I rmb i used to believe in this

Kah Hwee's bday during band camp (:
Her mentos certification

NDP celebration at the sports complex~

i remembered i camwhored a lot with Jasmine. :D

Sending Nanjing friend off~

When JEC didn't close;
2-2 went out for a movie (:

With Nanjing Buddy

Weiying's Bday cake

Mass studying for EoY at my house.

I used to find this dustbin funny.

loved this shirt a lot, i wonder why too.

this is funny!

50Bucks folded into a shirt which looks like commonwealth sch uni.

sec3 camp (:

The double rainbow
i saw it appear and disappear.
:D

Once in a lifetime photo of Si Jia!
super duper hard to get her photo de lorhhs.

Loved these balloons~

with my mum! x3

oh wells.
(:

one yr passed!

hahas. i wonder why am i flipping these pictures only now.
x.x

stay happy people! (:

a happy and sad day. (:

2009-07-16T19:09:00.002+08:00

days passed,
and i feel that i haven't move on.
.___.

lol.
except for the fact that i'm really into studying now.
lol~

XLL said:" most people who suffered from depression are those who kept thinking 'if only' ".
hahas.
i wonder if i'm in depression.
LOL~

does winning or losing make a difference?
seriously,
i don't find it so.

even if you lose in something,
you might gain something that others can't in the process.

recently my mind just kept floating.
no matter how much effort i put into keeping my mind on the books,
it's futile.
.__.

and,
i'm not emo-ing,
i'm just expressionless.

it's like inborn,
whenever i'm expressionless, my mouth will look like it's frowning.
or perhaps, it really is frowning.
that's like natural feeling.
x.x?

i really just hope the reason why she's acting like this is not cause of me.

pple kept telling me i kept blaming myself for things that i'm not the cause of,
but have you guys wondered the other way..?

seriously, i know the previous me is very arrogant [ or smt you may call it ],
very self-centered, very emo, getting jealous easily, getting all worked up super easily and i bear grudges.

but really,
i'm trying my best to change.
not cause i want more people to like me or something,
but i seriously loathe the previous me.

now?

at least i can talk jokes, people disiao-ing, not really emo [though no one believes cause most of the time i'm expressionless].

gah.
i know i can't please everyone,
but i really do hope people will give me a chance to prove to them that i'm not the previous me.

"don't change yourself for others, be proud of who you are 'cause you're special"
someone once said this to me.

i just wanna improve.

i loathe that part of me getting agitated so easily.
=.="

20th Century Boys and Harry Potter's Half Blood Prince opened today. (:

Hopefully,
i'm able to watch these two movies soon,
like really soon, cause school's getting busier and busier. D:

wonder if it'll rain tonight.
(:

做人要有勇气面对现实.

2009-07-14T17:33:00.003+08:00

"做人要有勇气面对现实".

passed a maths retest!
damn happy.

but .__.
Happy also can't show.
haix.

=.="

oh wells.

don't care what she said larhhs.
seriously, she sucks.
just DON'T CARE.

i also climb from the bottom de wads..
no one is born genius lar!
even genius also takes time to know that they're one.

last time all i see for maths was underlined or red,
sometimes by luck pass.

HARD WORK!

why cry over failure?
i know it's sad and uncontrollable.
but seriously,
it's really NOT WORTH IT.

believe you can,
and you really can.

dunno must ask.

if i could do it, so can you!
don't say you're dumber or whatsoever.
'cause everyone's born to be smart.

seriously,
ain't you improving?

more faith in urself!

(:

thanks a lot Hui Zhen!
for listening to my rantings!
i know i very ma fan and naggy.
hahas.
=x

THANKS! (:

sorry si jia, jia wen and liping! >.<>.<*

i really have great friends around me.
[:

O level oral.

2009-07-13T18:39:00.002+08:00

i think i tio stun a bit.

like weird.

i was trying to think of happy moments
,to not panic.

then i walked there,

greeted the examiners,
asked if i could sit n start.

the woman in blue interrupted my speech and told me to begin,
EVEN BEFORE i sat.

how nice.

while reading passage,
i looked up to them,
they ignored me by staring at the paper the whole time.

wow.

i looked up twice somemore.

the topic was C.I.P hours.

i was like, "oh got practise before. "

but no words came out.
=.=!

emo lar.

i STUTTERED.
omg omg.

haix.
>.<*

feel dam sorry to those who had hope on me and those who encouraged me so much.
x.x

hopefully,
i can get good grades.

>.<*

2009-07-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

it just rained, even if it's just a drizzle.

hahas.

(:

praying hard my hard work pays off.

hopefully i won't tio stun,
hopefully i won't let ah bu down,
hopefully i won't let xll down,
hopefully i won't let pple who have high hopes on me down,
hopefully i won't let myself down.

(:

i feel that insomia's coming back.

why did you ask so directly? ._.
bye.

random.

2009-07-12T15:18:00.003+08:00

"No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start"

i suddenly love the anastasia song.

hahas.

really too random.

bet i'll not be able to take the stress tmw.

ORAL ORAL ORAL.
x.x

i'm afraid i'll stutter,
i'm scared that i'll be loss for words.

=/

i can do it!
(:

&
stop promising me things that you can't do it.
it'll only make me believe you
and gets disappointed again.
you're forever breaking promises.

SMILE, 'cause it happened.

Changed skin. (:

2009-07-11T21:14:00.002+08:00

i wanted a more simple blogskin.

=.=*

it looks weird.

oh well.

i love walking in the rain. (:

i hope mdm ros didn't penalize my group.
i did upload before the deadline.
but i didn't know it couldn't open.
.___.

stupid & retarded me.
hopefully she understands..
x.x

talking to myself insanely.
ORAL!!

2009-07-10T15:05:00.003+08:00

anyone willing to teach me maths? (:

hahas.
i die die wanna improve.
feel so stupid.
lols~

i wonder how,
i wonder why,

haha.

i'm so gonna stone at home again soon.
crap.
=/

can i just treat you like a normal friend and care?
.__.
it sucks to talk in an awkward manner.
especially since you said so.
gah.

=.="

someone give me a wall to bang.

2009-07-08T17:45:00.003+08:00

MONDAY!

first time saw liping serious when studying.
rare sight eh.

hahas. (:
i think it's kinda funny though.
not used to her being so serious at work.
=X

had the worst cramps today.

jasmine was funny.
me: "do you have pink pills?"
jasmine:" huh? what's pink pills?!" she sort of shouted.
i was like, crap.
-.-"

dunno why asking for pink pills can feel so ashamed.
hahas.
stupid cramps made me no mood to talk.
whole day in daze.

chinese oral after school.
i talked only for 1 paragraph.
XLL told me i can shutup.
wth.
then she never called me again.
wow.

sian-ed there.
was trying to bear the pain and not looking straight at the same time.
think i looked wrong.
then XLL laughed at me cause i blinked too many times.
in actual fact,
i was just trying to bear the pain and tense.
zzz.
=/

3.7kg to shed.

omg.

someone tell me i should eat less and don't be lazy.
hahas.

looks like running 3 times a week is not enough.
=/

haix.
i stoned on the way back home.

i fear.

2009-07-05T14:24:00.002+08:00

realised i didn't blog for 1wk.

hahas.

kinda happy that i am able to sleep at night alr.
:D

retest on tuesday.
heard smt about failing and entering booster class.
x.x

stoned at home.
and started thinking;

if only i was smarter,
if only i was taller,
if only information could diffuse into the brain,
if only i was nicer,
if only food ain't fattening,
if only i could cycle,
if only i could drink meng po tang and erase my memories,
if only friends lasts forever,
if only joy could come so easily,
if only happy moments lasts,
if only friendship weren't so fragile,
if only there wasn't so many tests,
if only i could score As without working hard,
if only i could lose weight,
if only i could live in the shrubs and see rainbow daily,
if only you noticed the little details,
if only i could just be happy,

hahas.
many many thoughts huh?

13july is my mt oral.
and 22 is listening.

x.x

someone give me a wall to bang.
.___.

going tuition. (:

anyone who passed a maths and need not have the retest,
is willing to help out? =/

dun think i'll be able to make it.
.__.

how i wish it's sunny now..

2009-06-27T15:54:00.002+08:00

out to bugis with Jasmine, Jia Wen and Liping. (:

the cam shy liping?

hahas.

Jas found her "Jj" tee @ 12bucks luhhs!
unfair! >.<

hmm,
went Guan Yin Miao pray~
(:

someone teach me how to sit properly.
my back aches.
._.

sat at Food Junction and crapped.
hahas.
talking about something like finding bf/gf must find those with fingers that can fit into ur nostrils perfectly.
hahas!

trained home later.

:D

jas said my blog has no picture,
thus she didn't felt like reading it.
so i shall spam pictures for her.
:D

touched?! C:

taken this quite long ago.
during the bday party of my bro's.

(:

anyone who's bored at night, please sms me.

don't know why,
i just can't sleep.

.____.

oh yeah,
timetable changed.

=/

warning : emo post.

2009-06-18T20:23:00.003+08:00

felt like got tons of things to say,
but words just can't describe.

i really thank her for telling me the fact.
cause if not, i'm gonna hate them.

like really.
at least, i've dried the tears for it alr.

thanks Joey Teo <3
thanks Shawn :D
thanks Mel (:
thanks Ezzul (:

hah.
i shld be optimistic and say,
"at least i don't need to practise more".
hah.
but i can't.

perhaps inborn pessimistic person?

if you were the one,
won't you feel really left out?
i know i suck a lot and perhaps, can't possibly play it well in one week.
perhaps that's how they think.

today is the day i felt the worst.
in this whole dam yr.

ahh.
fk.

i should learn how to try and not give up.

2009-06-16T11:29:00.003+08:00

hmm,
been a long time since i last blogged.

dunno what to write lehhs.

created a KOC char in maple.

at least i have peaceful life for now?

hahas.

kinda hated my main for that reason.

perhaps i will quit maple.

haix.haix.

i'm going for the flu vaccination.

wonder if it'll hurt.

i hate taking injections.

x.x!

CAMP's over.

2009-06-07T12:49:00.002+08:00

tons of good and bad things happened.

perhaps it's more of the bad things?

shan't elaborate as i'm lazy.

suddenly, i love drinking coffee.
and somehow, my insomia got worst.

feel so sick and tired of everything.

i knew you were referring that phrase to me, even though u didn't specify the name.
i really don't know why our friendship has become like this.

i really feel that i'm like a bitch now.
.__.

someone,
bring me away.

The Mayonnaise Jar

2009-06-01T15:53:00.003+08:00

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class

And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand

And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –

Things that if everything else was lost

And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

(:

i'm really tired.

somehow, i feel that i'm a total bitch.

gah. i loathe that side of me.

2009-05-31T00:04:00.002+08:00

i dunno why lar.
it's like the START OF JUNE HOLIDAYS.

yet my mood is .___.?
feels more like exams coming instead of holidays.

wtf lar.

haix.

start till like this.

seriously,
i wonder why sec 3 life sucks so much.
=.=

i wonder how, i wonder why.

why must we be at loggerheads now?
what happened to the 5yrs of friendship?
why must HE be the cause of it?

i know it's stupid to fret over such thing.
but i really CARE about you.
at the very least,
please don't become his new target.
CAUSE HE's DESPO.

anyways.
i'm really disappointed in tons of things.
even in myself.

whyyyy.

x.x

tons of things to voice out..
but to who?

hahas.

shall do the toilet bowl way. lol. =/

haii.
i feel tired.
but i just dunno why i can't slp.

.__.

2009-05-24T10:20:00.002+08:00

(:

FRIDAY!

was being random and kinda emo-ish on friday.

so yeah, anyhow taking photos.

mr de souza asked us if we wanted SYF tickets.
=.=

when it's like alr over! D:

nvm, xavier took it.

randomness of taking photos on our way to JE while waiting for 143. (:

the pic abv made ezzul look like he's doing smt horny. :x

THIS IS THE FUNNIEST. :D

HAHAHAS.

SATURDAY!

had band practise in the morning.
then rushed down to swiss o tel [forget spelling] for uncle's 60th bday!

this was the only food tat looked the cutest to me.

hahahahas.
it was kinda funn.
(:

and i realised, even at there, s'pore only has houses as a scenery.

=.=!

or is it cause i'm only at level 4?

hahas.

cake cutting. :D

i kept staring at these balloons.

makes me wanting to play with them..
bring them outside and release them one by one..

oh well, didn't get to do it.

wanted to take some balloon..
but mum wanna go out shopping. so yeah. =.=

<3

my niece!

she's utterly adorable rite? :D

she's also amused by the balloons. :D

stared at the fountain at raffles city.
and somehow or rather, i became very attracted to it.

it has star shape ley!

was amused by this card when walking around.

i think some of you know the meaning of it.
hahas.

saw this merry-go-round thing at a shop.
damn cute.
and damn expensive.

hahas.

that's all.
i'm late for tuition. -.-

2009-05-23T22:20:00.001+08:00

actually got TONS of pictures to upload for today's post derhhs.

but,
stupid phone died.

=.="

shall update tmw.

fated nt to update today.

.___.

insomia?

2009-05-21T22:59:00.001+08:00

hahas.

nowadays sleeping later and later.

just can't fall asleep.

>.<

yet in sch i'm so high!

it's shocking.

cause i can laugh non-stop for 10mins in lessons.
:O

stupid maple can't log in.

gah! D:

i shall go and stone.

i know you didn't know.

2009-05-19T20:58:00.003+08:00

i so freaking hate guys who break promises.

not directing this to anyone.

i just dun like larh.
like, if you can't do it,
why promise the other party?

if you don't like it,
why did you even promised?

cause of politeness?

then what about how the other party would feel after you break tat promise?
ever thought about it?
or are you just hoping that the other party would forget about it?

oh wells.
pple who know me well will know that i can't hate a person for long,
unless the other party crossed the line.
like really to the limit.

gah.
i think i missed you.

what shld i be?

2009-05-18T15:48:00.002+08:00

:D

first time reached home so early.

this morning,
suddenly thought about what i wanna be in future.
jia wen said it was so far away.

but seriously, i wanna hav a goal to head towards.
that's how i managed to pass my maths. [e maths only]

gah.
air stewardess seems attractive.
cause can travel around. :D
but height.
-.-"

sucks la.
discriminate height?
short is not wrong okay! D:

haix!

then i think.
vet?
LOL.
sure got people laughing when reading this.
i didn't take bio.
dunno if they'll accept me in tat course lor.
plus, i'm so not into science.
though i love pets.
-.-

jia wen wanna be accountant!
i think i'll also land up there.
but my maths cmi.
later boss sack me cause i count wrong.
hahas.

imagine,
the boss de company is earning.
but i count till he's making a loss.
lol.
=/

dunno larhhs.
D:

2009-05-17T01:33:00.001+08:00

visit jeremy teng's radio.

CLICK!

:D

2009-05-16T08:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday was games day.

the day my hand went vulgar.

hahas.

my middle finger's injured.

so i'm typing damn slowly.
cause it's an important finger, i can't even play my clar.
actually can, but lower octave n higher octave de all cannot press.
so there's like no point, since it's like more than half of my keys.

now i write also vulgar.
cause it looks like i'm pointing middle finger.
hahas. :/

down with flu and cough.

hopefully no fever.

>.<

Malaysia got the Influenza A alr.
sooner or later singapore also will tio.
=/

RC lvl 19 alr! :D

shall play maple again.
then concentrate on studying.

it gets so demoralizing.
in every way.
if you get what i mean.

2009-05-14T21:32:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO GROW TALLER.

LIKE, REALLY TALLER.

I WANT TO HAVE AT LEAST 158CM.

D:

it's the limit for stewardess. LOL!

为什么我就是长不高？！

为什么我那么努力也还是一个失败者？
我有那么多的疑问，就是没答案。

一而再，再而三的感到绝望。
我想哭，但眼泪都干了。
我想笑，但我觉得我很假。

希望能一睡，就睡到天亮。
永远不必起来，看到这一切。
我好累。

2009-05-14T16:44:00.003+08:00

something unexpected yesterday.

didn't expect HCL to pass, but i did. :D
didn't expect a maths to even hit 4x / 100, but i did.
didn't expect myself to be sleeping since 4pm, but i did. :o

hahas.

mabe now emo new method is sleep off.
at least better than last time - eating chocolates.
this makes me thinner cause i skipped dinner. :D

kay.
i siao.
=/

oh wells.

eng might be able to compete with alfred! :D

his eng is like ghey shit la! D:
but damn lucky for me, tyco.
hahahahahas!

hope letter writing i write better.
THEN CAN WIN HIM ALR! :D

anyway, i'm the retard who thinks tat physical causes = caused by human activities.
hahas.
=/

overall, i improved for:
eng,
both maths,
both sciences,
social studies.

i think 2/5 pple are damn smart too.
not saying others are stupid hor!

disappointed in HCL though.
shall tell myself "i love chinese" daily.

physiology.
LOL!

2009-05-12T20:14:00.004+08:00

someone, tell me that i'm selfish.

i realised i'm like super self-centered larh. =/

all i knew was looking at it one-sided and being all jealous.
gah! D:

i really freaking dunno what i'm trying to do nowadays.

why is it like this?
like really,
somehow, part of my heart wants exams to be continued.
like till forever, even if it's not possible.

oh well, i own the lala land.

hahas.

but really larh..
exams ended..
things getting back to the headache ones..
seriously sick of it.

i know i suck, but i did try.
but i really wanna giv up alr.

what a big fat liar.
here i'm giving up, yet i kept telling others to keep trying.
really really sick of it.

like, you work hard also last.
dun work hard also last.
everyone will always see you as "last".
so what's the point?

in their mindset, "last = slacker".
like really larh.
i dun give a fk.
last jiu last.
like i've never thrown enough face.

only reason why i never gave up till now
is cos i dun wanna waste the efforts of those pple who tried helping me..

physics - 10 passes out of 45.
a maths - 3/3 only had 3 passes. [no hope for me alr]
HCL - i alr failed paper one, so overall's a CONFIRM FAIL.

only thing i'm happy about right now,
e maths - i improved A LOT. B3/A2 i think.
chem - expected D7/E8/F9, but passed! :DD c5 i think.
eng - totally unexpected to pass to nicely. xD

i've totally no idea what i'm trying to do or doing now.

only thing i can do now is to smile and say i'm fine.
(:

2009-05-11T23:15:00.003+08:00

went out to eat with siblings + mum at hilltop (:

the scenery quite nice leh..
spiral can go all the way up..
but mostly is only jurong island as scenery, which is like cranes after cranes.

x.x!

heard frm sis tat it's a famous place for my mum's generation to go there n date.
LOL!
there were tons of trees planted by famous pple,
like Queen Elizabeth II, etc.

kinda cool. (:

but i really missed the outing with 2-2! >.<

took a quiz.

You're fun to be with, secretive and difficult to fathom and understand. You're also quiet unless excited or tensed. You take pride in yourself. You're easily, consoled, honest, and you tend to be concerned about people's feelings. You're tactful, friendly, and approachable. You may tend to be emotional temperamental and unpredictable. You're easily hurt, witty, and sparkly. You tend to be spazzy at times. Luckily you aren't revengeful. You're forgiving but you never forget. You dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things. You guide others physically and mentally. You're caring, loving, and sensitive. You treat others equally, and have a strong sense of sympathy. You're wary and sharp. You tend to judge people through observations. You're hard working and have no difficulty studying. You love to be with friends. You're not aggressive unless provoked. You love to be loved. You're easily hurt and you take a long time to recover.

that's totally WRONG!
i meant the one in yellow, btw.

hahas! i suck at studies.
somehow.

but the rest i sorta agree.
:D

2009-05-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

gah.

somehow, i just can't sleep!
D:

*gonna have darker circles*

x.x!

anyone any idea of any remedy to cure this?
=/

shall try again..
(:

MOTHER's DAY!

2009-05-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

i didn't celebrate today.
tmw gonna hav lunch with siblings + mum for today.
thus i have to ps 2-2 outing.. >.<

sorry!! >.<

rc-ing, stoning, watching "corner with love" again, waiting for "catch me now" to load episode 11..

hahas! :D

i scared of ah bu le larhhs! =X

FIERCE!!!!!!! D:
i'll become her first victim of being wacked!
zomg! >.<

每一个人，都在等一个人。

(:

2009-05-08T18:28:00.002+08:00

A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta

i love this song! :D

"Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside"

gah.

someone bring me out, or i'll be stoning at home.

tmw's vesak day.
going out to pray again..

everyday's so ...
long?

finished boys over flowers,
which is like okok bahhs.
a shorter version of meteor garden?

now watching catch me now. :D

it's amazing to know how long did i not watch any anime.
guess, everyone will change?

the fun times we had together,
everything has changed?
i know u feel left out,
but at least we did try to get you in.
all one word replies now.

i'm sick and tired of another repetition of last year.

MYE OVER. :D

2009-05-07T20:45:00.002+08:00

WAHAHAHAHA.

it's good to be physichem. :D

exams ended today.

i think i'll score badly.

cause i can't concentrate for all the exams due to my back problem. .__.

so retarded la.
want study, yet backache till cannot even concentrate.

maths was worst..
i dunno + no time = GG.

zzz!!

gah.
i hate my back.
so pain.

anyway, i loathe next week.
exam paper will return to us.

which means crying.

gah!

dun think lerhhs.

JY for those with BIO/ ECONS paper tmw! :D

meanwhile i shall rot at home...

MYE sucked pretty bad.

2009-05-05T15:59:00.003+08:00

HCL - CONFIRM FLUNG paper, didn't complete + dun understand passage = GG!
Social Studies - didn't complete paper on the reliability part.
History - managed to chiong the whole paper and yeah, anyhow do de lorhhs. ._.
A MATHS - CONFIRM FLUNG paper, never even learnt power logs, yet tat ELEVEN-FINGERED monster set it! D:
CHEM - so far the easiest paper, alot of careless though.. D:
i mixed up METHANE and ETHANE/ ETHENE formula!
it was suppose to be CH4, i wrote C2H4.. ZOMG!

mental blocked now..

somehow, in the mist of a maths paper, i wanted to just cry.
but, it'll only waste my time..
30marks straight off..
haix.

e maths tmw..
then geog and physics to end the exam!

first time i didn't have a major breakdown during exams..
there's always a reason why i've always hoped humanities were first..
(:

i seriously hope my pronunciation improves..
i can't even hear what i'm mumbling now larhhs.
let alone, allowing others to know.

x.x!!

E MATHSSSSSSSSS.
I PRAY HARD IT's NOT KILLER.
else i wanna suicide!!!!! D:

remember to bring thermometer and the idiotic sheet of paper[overseas thinggie].
:D

it's amazing how i love exams.
i could stand not talking.
(:

2009-04-30T10:53:00.002+08:00

ENG.

paper one was like.. -.-?

i didn't know what to write larhhs.
x.x

paper two was kinda easy..
but i think i've made careless mistakes..
x.x!

thankful to jasmine~~
now feel better liao luhhs..
:)

i shall try and study and try to pass.
since i really don't see a hope for me to pass. ._.
./faint.

perhaps i'll go to poly.
and skip jc cause i'm sick of chinese.
feel like dropping it. ._.

plus xll said tat by next yr normal chinese O lvl result out,
if the HCL students dun get distinctions for all,
we'll have to drop no matter what.

just a pity cause i took it for 5years alrdy.
but first time i failed so badly larhhs.

i always thought i'm better at languages n humanities,
but now everything seems so .___.

i'll be good and not think about it now.
(:

INFERIOR.

2009-04-27T21:48:00.003+08:00

i am DEAD JEALOUS.

x.x

did my best by not mentioning it for 1wk.
and i'm still trying not to.
but it's like getting into my head.

like yeah.

sometimes, i could even think of those scenes.
zomg la.

WTH IS WRONG WITH ME!

i shan't be jealous cause i've no rights to.
afterall, i lost in every way.

even now, being called as a cao ah lian.
like seriously,
my attitude is turning from bad to worst.

gah.
i loathe it when pple call me that.

and i hate girls.
cause, even when you're telling urself not to cry, tears will just roll down NATURALLY.
LIKE, UNCONTROLLABLE?!
gah.

seriously lah,
i know i'm NOT good enough.
but i really really tried.
born dumb?
i spent hours mugging maths n physics.
yet pple dun study can pass and i study like mad get a just pass.

even xll said my attitude is getting bad.
WTH IS FREAKING WRONG WITH ME LA.
i wanna get good grades.
at least a pass for subjects i'm weak in.

i really really try.
and i really really can't.

how inferior i felt la.
world's apart.

why, why and why?!

i really just wanna be selfish and have that courage.
but i'm just a timid person.
thus, i dun feel i've the right to feel this way.

really forcing.
i'm tired alrdy.
but what can i do?

2009-04-22T20:23:00.002+08:00

hahas :)

a maths test tomorrow on surds, indices, logs, alpha beta and the quadratic eqns.

fail! D:

before test alrdy know fail le, why take?

hahas.

i dun get a thing tat mdm chang is talking.
ask her is akin to not asking.
x.x

so dead larhhs.

so many of my subjects are failing..

chem, a and e maths, ss, physics, chinese..
zomg la.

i dun wanna see a F9 for chem sia.
zzz!

siansation~!

homework and homework.

the trainee teacher thinks spamming homework is fun.
kns.

spam dao bao!

since spam = bacon,

baconing homework? :O

is there such word in the first place?

D:

i'm exhausted, yet pushing myself to study in this hot weather.

kinda happy cause i explained to my mum abt the monsoon winds that made singapore so hot in this time of the yr.

(:

showed tat i know my geog?
LOL.
dunno larhhs. -.-"

MUG TIMEEEEEE.

D:

CINDERELLA!

2009-04-17T20:11:00.004+08:00

Suddenly i went to dig out my anime box.
hahas.

sudden crave of it bahhs. :)

Chanced upon this song.

named cinderella, by tata young.

[:

the song's kinda nice.
but the mv like damn..
-loss for words-

i nid to force myself to study.
started my revision for geography alrdy.
really hope i'll pass chem, physics and MATHS.
they're the ones worrying me the most.
ss and history..
i dunno bah.

i'm like weak in everything.
x.x!

not enough time!! D:

MUG TIME!

mistaken?

2009-04-16T23:24:00.005+08:00

today's a damn bad day.

i loathe today.
though it has no tests,
though no tests were given back,
though i had free periods cause Mr Soh wasn't in school,

I SUPER LOATHE TODAY.

feel like just shouting "fuck la".
super vulgar once again.

i'm really really damn disappointed in myself.
close frens getting mad..
ignoring me..

what do you want me to do, seriously?
i've apologised.

utterly no comments.

for people who are curious to know what's with the mystery in this post,
don't bother asking.

BYE.BYE!

Stress?

2009-04-15T20:01:00.002+08:00

Currently addicted to a show named 古靈精探.

LOLOL.

my brother repaired my comp! :DD

but exam's in like 14days time? x.x

i hate exams.
*stress steams out*
X.X

just so tired.
and guess what!
I LOVE MATHS NOW.
LOLOL.

i kena said as "weird" cause i kept talking to my papers.
ESP MATHS.
so please don't listen to anything i say when i'm doing maths.
cause whenever i meet a question i dunno,
i'll be like "eh! I LOVE YOU LEH! BUT WHY YOU DUN LOVE ME?! please tell me how to solve the problem!"
which meant, "i love the MARKS that the question carries, but the question is so difficult to solve tat it seems like it's relunctant to give me the marks".

LOL!
i'm getting weird.
:]

BYE.BYE!

life without my computer is a -.-!

2009-04-12T11:48:00.004+08:00

using my dad's comp to blog. -.-

i'm like so pathetic.

no computer to use. x.x

i miss my computer! D:

hahax.

recently very stressed abt passing MYE.

cause i suck in almost every subject.
-.-ll

a and e maths, physics, chem, combined humans [history + social studies], geog and chi all predicted to fail.
LOL.
how nice man, passing eng only.
-.-ll

i think the one which will hit badly on me is maths.

cause i really put in like 4times more effort this yr, compared to last yr.
and i am still failing e maths, which a lot of ppl said e maths is easier than a maths.
dunno what's wrong with me.
x.x

insomia again i guess..
yesterday couldn't really sleep.
thus something big happened.

until now still kinda shocked.
not frightened, but just shocked la.
perhaps i nid more time.
just give me more time, please?

concentrating on passing MYE now.
though i'm still moaning over stuffs,
troubled over personal matters..
hahas.
:)

i can pass!
xD

BYE.BYE! x33