i'm most probably feeling the same feeling like jasmine now.

just felt damn extra.

even though i know it's all my problem.
'cause it's me who think this way.
it's just, i feel weird to everything.
something's just not right and it's bothering me a lot lately.
just can't pinpoint what that is.

i dunno larhhs.

in the whole group, no one is fat.
probably that's what i feel bahhs.

feel like just being anorexic and shed those irritating weight.
!@#$%.

ezzul made me cry yesterday.
cause he made me laugh while i was drinking water.
i choked.
and the water came out from my nose.
super disgusting.
and it's dam unglam cause he was there too.

totally don't get why i feel this way recently.
i dun wanna feel that,
my mind and mood just goes there~

bastard guy today,
hitted my head with that soccer ball at full impact.
i was like in total pain lar.
natural reaction - cry.
it seriously hurts larhhs.
the impact was so loud that it sounded like something clashing with metal.
.______.

i totally spaced out during CH.

why am i so prone to accident?

=.="

haix.

feel like just slapping myself upside-down.

"out in this vast world,
i believe there's somewhere and something that fits me.

but the numerous failures burdening over me.

i can't help but doubt myself."

quoted from jasmine.

i feel that too.
perhaps more of inferiority.

forcing myself to study is of no use.
i pity him.
but i dun wanna go near him.
'cause i'm afraid that i'll fall deeper again.
how contradicting.

i really admire xiang qin in the show it started with a kiss.
she could persevere for so long.
after all, a show is a show.

rained @ 5:44 PM