days passed,
and i feel that i haven't move on.
.___.

lol.
except for the fact that i'm really into studying now.
lol~

XLL said:" most people who suffered from depression are those who kept thinking 'if only' ".
hahas.
i wonder if i'm in depression.
LOL~

does winning or losing make a difference?
seriously,
i don't find it so.

even if you lose in something,
you might gain something that others can't in the process.

recently my mind just kept floating.
no matter how much effort i put into keeping my mind on the books,
it's futile.
.__.

and,
i'm not emo-ing,
i'm just expressionless.

it's like inborn,
whenever i'm expressionless, my mouth will look like it's frowning.
or perhaps, it really is frowning.
that's like natural feeling.
x.x?

i really just hope the reason why she's acting like this is not cause of me.

pple kept telling me i kept blaming myself for things that i'm not the cause of,
but have you guys wondered the other way..?

seriously, i know the previous me is very arrogant [ or smt you may call it ],
very self-centered, very emo, getting jealous easily, getting all worked up super easily and i bear grudges.

but really,
i'm trying my best to change.
not cause i want more people to like me or something,
but i seriously loathe the previous me.

now?

at least i can talk jokes, people disiao-ing, not really emo [though no one believes cause most of the time i'm expressionless].

gah.
i know i can't please everyone,
but i really do hope people will give me a chance to prove to them that i'm not the previous me.

"don't change yourself for others, be proud of who you are 'cause you're special"
someone once said this to me.

i just wanna improve.

i loathe that part of me getting agitated so easily.
=.="

20th Century Boys and Harry Potter's Half Blood Prince opened today. (:

Hopefully,
i'm able to watch these two movies soon,
like really soon, cause school's getting busier and busier. D:

wonder if it'll rain tonight.
(:

rained @ 7:09 PM