he said we didn't tried.
i dunno about the part of "we".
but i know that I DID tried.

just probably i didn't tried THAT hard and PERSEVERED longer.
seriously,
that feeling sucks.

practising so much,
yet he can play WAY BETTER than you,
when he practised like around the time you spent practising too.

he told us to memorise scores.
i can tell you, i'm damn bloody stupid enough to forget what i've memorised the following day.
some people just can't memorise things.
and i really did spend time remembering.

he said we didn't try to reach the standard of him[another guy].
but like really,
he has that musical capability in him,
that most of us lack.
that gave him a head start for us.

i feel damn tired.
like, you know you did try, did put in effort,
yet you just cannot make it.

that feeling that i always felt,
it's really making me more and more disappointed in myself.

i don't know how to hear tuning.
they kept saying "listen".
but really,
how to?

i spent time with the tuner,
but every time i set up, there'll be different tunings.

i really dun wanna be the lot who brings the band down.

seriously,
i suck big time.

it's time i've to master the art of smiling,
even when i'm on the verge of tears.
cause i've failed on saturday.
i shouldn't have shown my emotions.
it's time i start that.
if my parents could do it,
i can too.

i'm sorry.

BYE.BYE!

rained @ 1:33 PM