hahas.
i feel that i am getting cheem-er.

LOL~

k, i'm dam lame. -.-ll

Someone help me.
Teach me how to run my retarded fingers who dun wanna run the notes.
I know wad are the notes.
just my stupid bloody fingers dun wanna move.

And once my fingers start wanting to move,
my mind just shut off.
totally slow in reading somehow.

I WANNA GET THOSE TWO WORKING TOGETHER.

like seriously.
i know how to do the CT's maths.
Yet i wrong so many wrong answers which i can do it NOW.
WTHeck la!

NOT LIKE I WANT IT.

Sometimes i really wanna give up le lorhhs.
Like really,
everytime i see those people slacking yet getting better than me, i'm like dead jealous.
I really really tried my best.
I really really put my heart into practising.
I really really wanna cry everytime i can't get it even after such practises.
Damn loser la.
work so hard yet can't get ANYTHING right.

left so less time..
Really really hope i can make it..
but until now..
i'm cmi..

i so wanted people to change their mindset of having 3rds being the lousiest players..
but i'm lousy enough to prove that their mindset is correct..
hahas.

They said "hardwork gets paid off" [something like dat ]
i really don't believe.

People told me"don't give up, you can do it".
if i can really do it, why is it that until now i can't?
perhaps i should just resign to what people say "you suck big time".

[ This is not directed to anyone, thus don't take offence or anything to heart of whatever rubbish i said. ]

rained @ 8:55 PM