i have been thinking a lot recently..

seems like, i've cared too much for my friends?
Went to media corp yesterday to support Jeremy.

He's like so sad..
everyone had so many supporters, only us, we were a small group..
[not really small, 30 odd people, while others had 40 plus?]

gah.

saw that freako..
I was damn sarcastic.
I wondered why i cared so much.
I could have just let her go.

I went straight to her and asked:" So when was "when i reach home, i'll call you" coming?"
She just gave me that stare like WTF.
I just went saying "I don't ask you for anything, i just want an answer. Cause, it concerns your CCA points. Imagine you got 14points, and you nid that 2 CCA points to get into your desired JC, but can't be done cause you don't have it. I tell you, you'll cry"

She just, "I really have no reason to say."
Even if you have your ku zhong, can't you just at least tell your teacher in-charge about it?
You're just...
-no words to describe-

Suddenly remembered Ms Chu saying about Blogs.
.__.
Anyway, my blog isn't that famous afterall? :O

hahas.

Perhaps i cared too much for the friend around me.

"Imagine you're in a pit-hole with her and you two are stuck inside."
"You should get out of it yourself first, letting go of the other party's hand and climb out. Later when you're out, you should then save her."
-said by someone.

But my reply was,
"I would rather pull that person along with me.Especially when the other party is hurt/injured."
"Cause, the other party might not reach out her hand to you again once you've let her go."

I said that.

But now..
i really dunno what i want.
i really dunno what i have been doing.

and,
i found a friend who has the same thought as me all these while..
"There will not be any true friend in this world."

lols.

I shall learn the way of not caring.
Since it hurts so much to see you crying, numbing yourself, i shall say "i don't give a damn" next time.

to someone i care:

Like i've said before, you're just not confident of your character.. going around pleasing people, making everyone happy..
i knew that the smile on your face is fake. But, can you just show more care about yourself?
Ask yourself seriously, so what if your friends around you are all so happy and you're not? You can't please everyone.
So, i please implore you to stop.

Christmas is coming after all.
Face the fact.
Don't hide, cause it won't help.

Stay Happy Friends~! <33

rained @ 12:20 PM