Went for band practise today.

I suck. =.=
Played Pasadena with the Sec 1s.
Somehow, i still have the rhythm in my head.

Then lunch with Min Yi and DADDY aka Jeremy.
Both of them were so darn quiet. At first i tried talking, then i gave up. -.-ll

Back for band at around 1.40pm and slacked outside feeling the breeze till around 2.10pm.
Wanted to eat my medicine, then i realised my cough mixture leaked.
Didn't bother to drink it.

Then went on with Band practise..
KH was totally emo during practise.
Cause i didn't know the reason, i didn't know how to communicate with her.
Thus i ended up day dreaming.
Then, De Souza out of the blue asked my if "American Symphony" was nice.

I just went "huh?" then act blur. LOL.
Shocked la..
Cause normally, i am just a shadow.

Marvin took us for the next 1 and a half hour cause De Souza had to rush off to Whitely Sec.
First time our section was praised so much.
Felt quite happy.

Sometimes, i just wonder..
is it that KH is "weak" by nature or is it just i'm strong?
She kept crying cause of her parents..

To me, even if i have to cry, i won't show.
If i really have to show, that will be my most emo time.
And at that point, i will really want some attention.

I seen my dad fooling around with that bitch.
Yet, i cried silently in my heart.

All the while, it has been me listening to my friends around me, not always, but its often.
Except for two.. Ger and Shu Hui.
Both of them just won't tell me anything,
even if they emo infront of me, they won't want me to know anything about the reason.

But for others..
giving advice to people who are older than me are always frequent. :O
Shan't name them here.
Just felt like asking..
does anyone care about my feelings?

all the while..
Jeremy T scolded me for being emo on my blog, but when in school, i dun show it.
Jas did that too..
I told part of it to them before, but perhaps, its just too young to realise these.
Perhaps, i'm the one getting matured faster than people of my age due to my surroundings.

seriously,
i find KH lucky, at least she has someone to turn to.
Someone who is there for her every time she needs.

Perhaps, i'm longing for someone to love.
Perhaps, i'm longing for attention.

lol. Just saying what i felt recently.
Cause i really dunno how to say it out whenever someone asks me:" are you emo-ing?"
So yeah, here's the ans.

tatas~!

rained @ 9:18 PM