I just wanna slap you right now.
You think ure the only one struggling to survive in the world?
I'm also trying my best you know.
Everytime i see myself at that same place, and yet, right infront of me are my parents quarrelling.
What do you think i felt?
You said ur parents didn't care about you and you could just go out as and when you like, even midnight.
Then let me tell you,
YOU'RE TOTALLY WRONG.
You mother cares.
She cares A LOT. Who on earth in the right mind will not care for her own son after carrying him in her womb for that 9 months?!
TELL ME.

Comparing yourself with me, YOU'RE VERY LUCKY.
My parents don't care about me.
They don't care about how i felt.
Forever self-centered.
WTF do you think i felt man?
I just had to sit there, LISTEN to the hearing.
You thought i wanted?
I dread going to that place. BUT I CAN'T DON'T GO.
Even now,
my only support, which are my friends, they're disappearing one by one.
I don't know why.
Perhaps i appear to be very emo infront of them that they don't dare to come near me?
Perhaps i am of no use to them that they are all shun-ing me?
Perhaps i am just a useless freak.

Seriously, i don't wanna give a damn about you.
But hey, SUICIDE is really crazy.
I was once like you, thinking of suiciding.
But hey, even if life's that bad, SUICIDE is really VERY FOOLISH.
What's so good about suiciding?
Killing urself and then you make the others emo for you?
Think about those who care for you.
Kim cares.
Do you think she won't be emo if you died?
Do you want her to be like dat?

THINK OF THE CONSEQUENCES.
I just felt like slapping you.
Make you wake up.
Cause i know how hopeless you felt.
Cause i was once like dat.
But hey.
U are more fortunate.
When i was hopeless, i still had to rely on myself.
Even though Doris was trying to drag me out of it, she failed you know.
That point in time,
I thought i lost Germaine.
I thought i lost EVERYONE.
I couldn't run over to Kim cause i know she has her problems.
I don't wanna worry others.
So i had ONLY MYSELF.
But aren't i still ALIVE here?
So why are you thinking of suiciding, for fuck?

Seriously, think.
Is it really worth it?

Fuck man.

rained @ 8:53 PM