I JUST LOST MY WALLET.

Why does all the bad things happen together? First i cried during recess today, then wallet gone.

At first i didn't wanna cry. Then after hearing what Germaine told me, i totally broke down. I know when i complain about things, sometimes, i get too carried away. Cause i thought of you as one of my close friends, therefore i didn't mind you lying about knowing the group and stuff. Actually, i alrdy found out that Kenneth doesn't have an hotmail, and hence, how does he spam u? It's only that i don't wanna say.

Too bad if you're hurt or what. Since you just did this to me, i will just say it all out, once and for all. You said you live in bungalow. Yet, no one saw you going back there and we can't go your house. How do you expect people to believe you?

Next. Kenneth doesn't even know you, yet you said you went out with him before. I really wonder how huh. Then, you said i complain too much. Okay, i admit that i am always complaining. But this time, i really needed some support. I thought you were reliable. But, i chose the wrong person.

But have you ever wondered if you never complained about other to me before? you did right? And all i did was lending you an listening ear. Yet, you did this to me. How you expect me to feel?
Today, i so wanted to scream my lungs out. Smses coming in telling me to help them look after people, check on them, see if they're well, WHEN I CAN'T EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. What do you think i felt? But how? I can't just off my phone like this. Else some people might just sms me saying they wanna suicide or something. I am very afraid that he might sms these kind of messages. That's why i didn't off my phone.

I'm really very tired of all this. Can't someone think about me? About how i felt? Yesterday, went out eating KFC with Ger, Jas, Si Jia, Shu Hui, Adeline, Wei Ying and Jia Wen. I was like, " I hated my seating place in class now, everyday i emo there only" They replied: " I thought you were VERY happy there? Everyday see you smiling away, like darn happy flirting with Yi Hong and Yao Xiang? "

I was emotionally hurt la. Seriously, i hated this arrangement. It makes me totally feel left out. At that point i so wanted to shout out, " If i had a choice not to talk to the guys i will. Pei Zi is close with Adeline, so leaving me the left out one. My surroundings are all guys. Every break the guys will crowd around my table, WHAT CAN I DO? " Everytime i wanted to go and find jasmine, she will always be busy. That's why, i didn't really TOTALLY believed her letter.

In fact, i lost my trust in everyone. It's pitch black now.

rained @ 9:36 PM