Had Art exam today. Aiya, i sucked at drawing. Drew some crappy drawing for my exam. Guess i have no patience, i was like so stressed and troubled. No mood la. Recently so many things happening, i seriously have no mood.
Recently i had this disease of saying "Sorry". Practically i have been saying "Sorry" to almost everyone. I seriously don't know whats wrong with me. Even when i just pissed my enemy because of what mean things they said, i will apologise to them. Seriously, i feel so guilty all of a sudden.
I am just very concerned for someone so when she told me that she had a crush on a guy, i was worried for her. You can call me paranoid, but i went through it. The worst time ever. That time i seriously had no friends, so when the other party knows about it, he just *hinted* to me by asking me how to date another girl. Me, a weakling, was like damn sad la. I can tell you, crying all alone is the worst thing ever, hence, i will just accompany people when they are crying, because i know that even they don't feel better with my presence, it will show them that at least people cared for them.
I seriously know that i am really not worth a friend, causing so much disharmony, but what can i do? I am really trying to change. Coping with exam stress, friendship stresses and even another stress from family is really isn't easy.
Even though exams are so called over, left with Oral and CDP, i am very tired. I seriously cannot take it anymore.
Today just witnessed a fight at the Market near Rulang. Happened between 2 vendors stalls are opposite each other some more. Because 1 of the vendor scolded the other old woman(vendor too) "Ji Bai" a very bad word which my classmates have been using it for ages. The old woman seemed pretty old liao la, then still wanted to take something to wack the other vendor. Even if angry, she also must take care of her health mah, cannot shorten her life because of this sickening guy.
I sincerely hope that she will forgive me one day. I don't mean harm, i am just too concerned for her. To me, she seemed pretty weak, because she cries easily from what i witnessed. Hope you will meet your Mr Right soon.
It is all my fault...
Song for the day:
Never Ever by All Saints! MV of Goong Princess Hours
Fly by Hilary Duff MV of Spirited Away
Anime Introduction for the day!
Tittle: Ouran High School Host Club
Alternative title: Ouran Koukou Host Club (Japanese) 桜蘭高校ホスト部 (Japanese)
Genres: Comedy, Drama, Romance, Shoujo, Slice of Life
Age rating: Teenagers (May contain bloody violence, bad language)
Plot Summary: Haruhi is a poor tomboyish student at a school for the ultra-wealthy, able to attend because of a scholarship, and unable to even afford a uniform. One day, she stumbles across the decidedly peculiar but very popular Ouran Host Club. She tries to leave, but accidentally breaks a vase, and unable to pay for it, she's told that she'll have to stay and do odd jobs. That is, until they decide she would be more valuable as a club member. Not realizing she's female due to her appearance, they fix her up and give her a male uniform. She's an instant hit, so they decide to have her keep up the charade even after they find out the truth. Haruhi, being average almost to a fault, doesn't know what to make of the unconventional activities of the Host Club (or of the even more unconventional members), but having little choice, she plays along. Before long, real bonds are formed, friends made, and Haruhi finds herself accepted in a way she could never have been otherwise in this affluent school.
